Do we ever feel we fit in?

I haven’t written here in some time but today I have the urge to. It's around identity and fitting in. We often talk a lot about peer groups and the importance of our child feeling accepted and belonging.

When it comes to school, we often see a change when A Neurodivergent child moves out of an environment that is mainly neurotypical into an all neurodivergent (ND) environment.

This nearly always has a positive impact on the ND Child and leads to mental health massively improving and confidence improvement.

When we become adults, we often refer to them as finding our people and will often seek out the groups that we are comfortable with.

What if though we don’t feel like we belong in either group? What if we have walked with many different people and still feel there is not an area that we feel fit?

I find this very tough; I have a select few people that I have found that I do feel I fit with, but I do find this difficult and there’s no group I fit as such just the odd person here and there. It's like if I was to have a party I wouldn’t have a group of people I feel that fit. I would have some people here there but nothing that would be seen as enough for a party if that makes sense.

My brain finds it so hard to fit in with others. It often makes me feel very alone even when in a world full of people.

It's funny as at times I crave to have friends I can go out and do what you would do like shopping, to the cinema, etc but at the same time I cannot even work out if that is something that I truly want to do as often it feels like a feeling that comes as my brain decides that I should want to do these things even if it is often my idea of hell. It can and is an all-out war of opinions that batt around my brain to confuse myself and spark up that lovely anxiety at the thoughts.